An old friend who is dear to me because of the struggles which he has experienced over time, speaks these words to me in response to this:
“Finding Peace without Closure and Answers can be difficult!”
…yes it can be in the beginning of a process.
This I know because it has been for me many times in the Past. One of the reasons I took to the sea alone, was because I fell into the trap of my own ego. The ego is not a bad thing…nor is it negative…although it can be if we allow it to control us. I did for many years…fifty years, actually.
We have the ego within us…it is there and we cannot delete it’s existence. Perhaps we were given it as a way to learn. At sea…and through the experiences there…not knowing at first the control of self I can actually attain through a process of letting go of what I cannot control…is how I got to the place of peace. Apparently, I had to be close to Death to realize so many things truly do not matter.
From the movie, “Fight Cub“…and I am quoting this from memory, so I probably have it a little off, but…
“That which truly does not matter…let it Slide.”
From my experiences at sea…and I reference them daily because it was the most profound experiences of my life thus far…I learned this lesson:
The only thing that truly matters is what is happening right now.
For me, writing these words to a fellow human who I love dearly as a friend…a fellow human who has been through so much intensity on his own…a fellow human who has fought death himself with his battles of physical healing from his inside organs…a fellow human who I respect and hold high as one who is Courageous beyond the ability of most other humans, is the most important thing.
So this moment as I write is what is most important…for it is the Present flowing moment….and this is where Peace exists in Strength…and everything falls into place here.
As I continue through my day, week, month, years and Life itself…I remain in those present moments with the humans, other animals and Time. Even in future times of struggle and challenge…
For instance, a few days ago when I saved my dog from the attack of a raccoon (the screams of Lucky as the raccoon drew blood will forever be with me), I can still be Peaceful because I must. If did not remain calm during the attack, Lucky may have been hurt worse or even killed.
Why did it happen? It does not matter. The event is over and it does not exist any longer. Peace.
The question of “Why” can haunt us as humans. If we focus on that question of a past action which we cannot change, our ego will only create negative emotions in us if we cannot find the answers we seek or wish to hear.
We can in fact, take lessons from those past events, but once the lesson is realized even without an answer, we must let go and come back to this present moment as we read these words. The result will be Peace.
Yes, creating this Way as a normal existence can be hard…it was for me…very hard indeed. And it took fighting monsters at sea to get there. We all have the ability within us…the process becomes easier over time.
This I feel deeply…
This I know…
This, from experience.
A photo I took of my dog, Lucky standing on Bolinas Beach, California. Katherine Gerardi co-creatively placed the image I sketched of “Compass Rose” and the swirls of light to create this final image.